We’ve all been there – the moment when the world spins out of control. The waves come crashing down on us and we are forced into a sink or swim battle without a clue on how we ended up swimming in the first place.
When it’s over I tell myself the same lie: moving forward I’ll only focus on what matters, I’ll live life to the fullest, I’ll fight for my happiness, and I’ll let go of the things that weigh me down. For a while my walk has a little bounce to it because I’m filled with a celebration of life, I am full of hope, and I focus on the opportunities that lie ahead.
With time I get too comfortable with things going well and develop a sense of entitlement. I demand more instead of appreciating what I have. I’m the top player in the game of “it’s never enough.” I don’t stop to take it all in, smell the roses, or embrace what I have. I focus on the specks of things I don’t like. EVERYTHING needs to be great for me to be happy. I make small things bigger than they need to be, complain about things that don’t need much attention and have a bad attitude. Then I’m brought back to reality in the next sink or swim episode.
Frantically I search for the pause button, but it does not exist. I don’t have time to register what is happening. The world begs me to keep moving. I would love to yell at the top of my lungs for the world to give me a minute to breathe and regroup, but it won’t. I may be the center of my world but I am not the center of THE WORLD. The world will carry on despite my wanting to, it doesn’t need my permission to steal precious moments, and it won’t slow down for my mental sanity.
I can either go with the flow and accept what I cannot change, or I can stand still and watch as time passes me by, either way, the reality I have to face is still the same.
I’m at that sink or swim place again. All I can think about is how I’m spending my time. If today was my last day if this was my last breath, would I be happy with my decisions? If I were called Home today, would the last word I shared with my loved ones bring me peace? These questions might be dramatic because we are too naive to accept that things change in the blink of an eye. Why do we need to be at a moment of great distress or pressure to embrace the riches of our lives? No one ever expects for their world to turn upside down even though it happens all the time, yet we are usually caught by surprise when we are the ones affected. We go to sleep and EXPECT to wake up, we leave our homes and EXPECT to reach our destinations safely, we prolong a fight ASSUMING we will have time to reconcile.
“Sometimes, bad days are there to remind us that we have good ones to look forward to.” –Unknown
I guess it’s true what they say, only when we stand in the darkness can we fully appreciate the light. The bad times have a way of making us realize things weren’t all that bad after all.
I pray that we:
- Find a way to break this vicious cycle and start embracing our blessings.
- Stop waiting for the death sentence to live – live as if everyday were our last day.
- Stop waiting until we are suffering to tell people that we love them.
- Stop waiting for the right circumstances to be happy.
- Stop shedding tears that won’t make a difference – especially those we have provoked.
- Smile a little bigger.
- Love ourselves more generously.
- Express love to those that are dear to us.
- Live fully.
- Enjoy the JOURNEY!!
For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; …Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.”James 4:13-15