Who is better at making decisions, me or God? The battle is ongoing, I take a little from the worldly advice, and try to balance it with my faith-based advice. I say, “Jesus take the wheel,” but insert many BUTs or recommendations along the way when I’m called to surrender and accept.
God willing, in 45 days I will be a Mrs. As we start the next chapter in our lives we have a few big decisions to make, some of these are permanent LIFE changing decisions.
Sometimes I overwhelmed as I weigh out our options. I make a list of the pros and cons, bouncing around with the options. At one moment I’m confident option A is what my heart really wants, but days later not quite so.
People who love and care about us give us their two cents. I listen, take mental notes, and keep their points stored for future internal debate. I use their advice to counter the decision I make and try to convince myself that they see something that my trusting God misses. Everyone means well, but today while on break, looking out at the ocean, I remembered how Orly and I started in the first place.
We prayed on it. We took it slow. We didn’t rush into our relationship – we were cautious about making a transition out of the friend zone because we treasured our bond. We were scared, we didn’t want to damage the beauty of our friendship. We faced this fear. We trusted God. God was always consulted and at the center of every move we made. Quite honestly, if we didn’t have God in our lives before we met we probably wouldn’t have dated!!! Yet, it’s the BEST decision (and risk) we ever made. Now many who were originally doubtful have come to understand why we took this leap of faith.
How then can I consider making a HUGE decision without consulting God FIRST (I didn’t say WE because Orly really is more trusting on this topic, He’s put His hands up to God. However, the accountant/business woman in me is trying to map out our future – silly me, I know!)? I have to allow GOD to make the decision, I cannot play God.
Identifying my two sources of advice (the world vs God) helped me understand why I was so torn; I’m trying to live the life I thought would please God while trying to live the life society expects me to.
God has a plan for my life. He has a plan for the life Orly and I are creating together. He has a plan for our children. I have the freedom to open my heart to God and allow Him to steer me in the right direction by making decisions that align with the Word of God.
The world doesn’t always understand the way we choose to live; we abstain from certain things, observe special days, avoid certain scenes, and the list goes on because our hearts feel it’s the right thing to do in honor and respect for God.
While I’m here, tossing and turning, trying to “decide” what the correct next step is, I have to remind myself what I’m here for.
My life – my mission – is to live the life God intended for me as best I can. My goal is to please Him with the way I live my life. God’s approval and happiness is my #1 goal. It may not look “pretty” or “fun” all the time to outsiders, but all that matters is that my heart intends to do good and honors God with my words and deeds.
This decision-making dilemma has eaten at me for almost a year now, but it’s time to consider who my loyalty belongs to.
Will I make a decision because it’s what those around me think I should do or do I make a decision trusting that God will steer me in the right direction?
For a long time I prayed, I waited, and by the grace of God I received an amazing man. Will I not trust God with this as well?
I need to surrender to God, no matter how confused I might about what is to come, He has every right to make this decision – not me. The church has a clear, black & white response to this question. There is nothing to debate or consider.
The world tells me to have fun, enjoy life, but God says – choose right.
I can’t pick and choose when it’s convenient for God to step in, this is a daily lifelong walk. It’s liberating, but it’s also scary because this isn’t an easy decision to make. Although a tremendous blessing, society has me believing that saying yes to what many would consider a blessing could end up being our unraveling.
Jesus – I trust in you!
1 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith Jehovah, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you [a]hope in your latter end. 12 And ye shall call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. 13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:11-13
Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding.
35 For I came to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law: 36 and a man’s foes shall be they of his own household. 37 He that loveth father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; and he that loveth son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. Matthew 10:35-37